Chandri MacLeod (chandri) wrote,
Chandri MacLeod

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Shuddery mid-afternoon concerns...

Eck... I don't know how to deaaaal with this... Erm. Sam just called me and asked how I was getting to the funeral... I don' t know how to tell her that I *really* don't want to go... Erm.
Don't like funerals. They'll make me go up and talk at the podium. And the preisty guy will glare at me. They always do. And I'll sit there feeling phenomonally uncomfortable and depressed not because of the event or the person causing the event but because of the location and the setting and the preisty guy glaring at me and my friends feeling all upset in a renewed way because it's a funeral and that's the *idea*...

*takes a breath*

...and I'm still trying to figure out how to diplomatically avoid this situation. Haven't got anything yet.

But I've got this horrible feeling his parents are going to *bury* him and he was a Druid and that's completely against *his* beliefs. Why don't the deceased's (s/p?) wishes ever get considered above the remaining living's? (s/p?) Because funerals and greiving are for the living, and have little or nothing to do with the dead. That's why. And that's the other reason it makes me uncomfortable.

That, and dead bodies ick me out. I really, really, really dislike open-casket. It's... it's morbid, is what it is.

And... *sigh* Damn. They're already mad at me. This is only going to make it worse... they already think I'm an unfeeling monster... but if I go I'm just going to make it worse. I'm not really sure if it makes any difference whether I go or not. They'll all draw the same conclusions regardless.

Ech. Damn, Keith, dude, I love ya, but I don't think I can do this... o.O

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