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I occasionally do have those at work; these were of the wordslinging kind. All day today I was thinking: "if Riverwend is pissing me off this much, right now, perhaps I should change my plans." The original plans were to query with Riverwend this month, and keep working on Meadhon. Admittedly, though, at the time I had not finished the first book in Meadhon, and was not so confident in my ability to finish the second book in the trilogy by the end of January '08, and was not in such a Meadhon/Paxverse frame of mind. It was all, "I finished a book!" And that was pretty much the end of it. But now I'm looking at it and it's looking like it'll be a lot more work to edit it into a shape I like again than I thought it would be, and that's okay, but.

Today, I found myself Googling the Southern British Columbia Geographical Survey to find out if there are caves in Maple Ridge, because I thought of a really good way to change a scene in StP that makes it much less stupid, and ties together with three other scenes, and does some worldbuilding without seeming to do anything at all. (Answer: yes on caves, no on where I needed them. Decision: fuck that, this is my universe, there are caves if I say there are caves.) I can possibly take this as a sign.

So now I am thinking, perhaps I will just offer up my first loves to the grind, instead, and try with Riverwend later? Keep working on editing, of course, non-stop (except for November, of course, which is NaNo), but perhaps take more time? I spent some time on various forums this afternoon and the general consensus seems to be that it's easier to sell a shorter book, even if it's in a trilogy, than a longer book. And Meadhon can, theoretically, I think, stand alone (though I really, really wouldn't want it to), and that's good as a first book, and Meadhon is unquestionably YA (which is good and apparently very popular right now), but Riverwend is, as I think I have mentioned... strange. It does not properly fit any potential genre, not entirely, and it is also, er, incredibly fucking long. In strictest submission format it's over 600 pages, and that's scary even to me. On top of that, whenever I open the book, it's making me, obscurely, uncomfortable, which is something I'm not sure how to explain. But there it is. Uncomfortable. Unhappy. It's a new thing for me and writing, because usually I don't think about it this much - I just do. (And this would be why.)

And that's setting aside the fact that just now, I kind of hate it with a fiery passion. I don't, really, not really, but you know what I mean. I love it, but I hate it. It's my problem child, and I want nothing more, right now, than to kick it very hard in its bottom and send it for a time-out in the corner.

This makes me feel guilty. :(

So, I don't know. I still haven't come up with a title for the first Meadhon book I actually like. But next week it will be all ready for strangers to read - and I know no one stranger than you people. (I kid. I kid because I love. ^.^)

It is kind of pathetic, though, right? That at the moment I am cowering in terror of my own manuscript, which sits enormous and malevolent and puzzling on top of the scanner.

And now I'm in a huffy mood, so I'm going to go make some tea.

Californians, be safe.


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Oct. 25th, 2007 03:37 am (UTC)

So, what format will I be gleefully pouncing on? Paper copy, or digital? *bounces*
Oct. 25th, 2007 04:33 am (UTC)
Digital, though mainly because I am selfish and impatient. (Also at this point it is mainly quality-control - I'm fairly sure there are no more plot-holes and I'm doing a final prose-prettiness sweep as we speak.) :)

And now I have to send another pestering text message to my sister. *evil grin*
Oct. 25th, 2007 12:52 pm (UTC)
Digital works for me! I'm a lot more into pixels than paper! Just hit me with it whenever you feel ready. This will be fun. *bounce*
Oct. 25th, 2007 08:27 pm (UTC)
You may want to eat some biscuits as well. It sounds serious.

I think you need to put Riverwend away for a little while until it becomes less of a lurking, malevolent presence. When it becomes shiny and new and you've had some time to process the various commentaries and question about the book, then you can go back to it. But only when you're ready.

It's nothing to be ashamed of and certainly nothing to feel guilty about. The book just needs some more stewing time.
Oct. 25th, 2007 09:11 pm (UTC)
It's actually been lurking and malevolent from about a day after you left. Aside from the things that are fairly easily fixed, like the major plot things, it just is... irrationally gigantic and intimidating.

The guilt is mostly from a feeling of disloyalty. I am a bad author! The Riverwenders are wandering Shantytown! Never mind, that is such an in-joke. Also, I am showing blatant favouritism. So there's that.

Lurking and malevolent. That's why I put it under the bed. *firm nod*
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